Music in my ears

Its about love?

HATING MY LIFE

Why cant i just go back how we had before? Simple happy spending time together during the weekends? Now everything has changed so much. Sigh.










JASON YOU BETTER KINDLY FUCK OFF BEFORE I GET SUPER UNFRIENDLY TO YOU!

Back in time

I really missed the days we are able to talk together. Messages and calls you barely answer/reply them. I really miss the old days that we can talk much over the phone. Is there a communication problem in between us?

All i just is to care about you by asking you to message me before going to work but you flare at me instead. What is wrong in between us can you tell me? I really want to resolve the problem.

Im trying hard to make your life as happy as it can. How i wish i can really turn back time and go back to the happy days i had with you.

Can we be just like last time again? I miss you.

What hurt me the most...

Dear, will you hold me tightly? I miss you!

Walking to our memories

I had enjoyed the night together with you yesterday. Im starting to get myself back in place to face you again.

Im really feeling so stress out everytime im thinking about this matter. Why cant he just get out in our relationship? I dont understand what is his motive to do all these. I just hate him been such close to you. Sigh, day by day my time for you shorten especially during this year.

I really wish i can spend more time together with you just like how i did last time. Dear, i cant bare to let you go. sigh. I love you!







JASON KINDLY FUCK OFF FROM OUR LIFES! ITS REALLY GETTING REALLY PISSED!

Going back?

I have a wish in mind but will it come true? I already have did the first step on myself but hopefully 1 day it will.

1. I wont want to take photography seriously but spend my time with Angel - Me
2. The Angel i know who does not do modeling any more - Angel (ACHIEVED)
3. The Angel who will not work any more in MMC but instead organizing photoshoots. Reason why i say that because she spends more on cab fare but not getting paid to herself but to her mum. I see no point. - Angel
4. If worst come to worst ill work together with MMC just to see her and spend my time together. I wont mind getting low pay just to see her.

I dont want to breakdown. I really love her. How can i put myself back like last time just to be happy with her instead of killing the happyness? *Muacks*

Promise

Devil's Promise to Angel

Angel, Ill give in my BEST effort to make you happy like before.
ANGEL, I LOVE YOU
I wont let this relationship and the efforts we had put in crumble!

Angel, Its just a nightmare.

So, how do you really define yourself as useless or helpless?

This evening after booking out from camp i headed down to Orchard road to fetch my Angel and while on the way to her work place thru the underpass i saw this granny who is selling some second hand items and approaching those by-passer to take look at them.

After walking pass her for 20 steps i walked back and gave her some cash which is enough for her dinner. I know Singapore is a tough place to live especially living standards start to rise everywhere.

After doing a good deed i feel much better after that and continue my walk to my angel's work place and decided to get her some supper to eat as im afraid that she is hungry after a long day at work. 

So was considering to get her sushi but didn't know if she eats raw fish so went to her store and asked her. After knowing what to get for her, i walked down to marketplace's and the sushi section was close and i decided to get her a Curry Puff and a mineral water instead.

I stood outside angel's workplace for 1 hour plus doing nothing. But its still worth the price to pay to fetch my angel back home. Her work ended and we started to walk down to the nearest station and while walking i saw the old lady still trying to sell her stuffs and i crunch my left fist telling myself she is trying so hard to fight for her surviver for her bread and butter & im the one who is spending a fair amount on gadgets to please myself. Where do i stand? Im not sure.

After reaching City Hall there was an argument in between us and i shouldnt have brought it up because it made her broke down totally. Angel, no matter who you are ill stand-by you and wont let you fail. Let me help you carry your burden you have. Seeing your crumble makes me heartaches. I tried my best to get my angel to start flying again but she didnt. Am i the useless one who cant get you flying again?

The wish i want to make for my 5th Month Anniversary is "Let my Angel stand strong even after failing". Angel, i love you. Let this nightmare go and lean on my shoulder. Im willing to carry your pain you are having now. 

- Angel's Devil